Consider the Lilies..: August 2015   

Aug 31, 2015

Day 8 part 3 (finally!)

My third personal goal..

School. 

Since Clay and I got home from our vacation I have been seriously slacking off as far as school is concerned. I am so far behind, it's just ridiculous.  
I can't even say that it is because I have been too busy with other things. I haven't. I just haven't been motivated to do much of anything at all.
I keep the house clean and the laundry done and I do my daily Bible reading but as far as even my normal every day Bible study (separate from theology school) I'm  lacking in the motivation department.

I'm not really sure what the deal is, but I definitely need to get my groove back..


Obviously that is going to take some real effort considering it took me this long just to finish part three of day eight right?

Ugh.  

Aug 17, 2015

Awake..


It's 4:13 in the morning, I've been awake since 2:45. Well, that's not completey true. I went to bed at 8:00 after taking two sleeping pills and drinking a cup of sleepy tea because I didn't sleep at all the night before. I woke up again at 9:45 and stayed awake until about 10:15.  Then awake at 11:00 until 11:30 when I took two more sleeping pills, then awake at 12:05 until 12:45, then awake at 2:45. I stopped trying to sleep and got up at 3:00. 

It's weird how insomnia comes and goes. I can't blame it on Clay being away; I know that some people can't sleep without their significant others, but it's not really a problem for me. Plus the insomnia sneaks up on me when he's home too. Even when he was home for 8 months. 
Sometimes it lasts a week, other times a month, sometimes more..

I've tried everything I can think of. Setting a routine- going to bed and getting up at the same time, no caffeine after noon, no light in the bedroom at all (not even from a clock), no television in my room, aroma therapy, I've changed my diet, I'm not stressed, nothing to worry about. Blah, blah, blah. 
Maybe I'm bored?  Maybe more exorcise?  Maybe I'm too routine?  
I dunno. 
I guess I'll get on the treadmill today and see if that makes a difference :)

Have a happy Monday!



Aug 15, 2015

Saturday..

I got a text from Clay this morning. He landed in Luanda at 8:30 AM. 
I wasn't ready for him to go this time. After our trip to New Mexico and Arizona, and then his parents visit here, it didn't feel like we had enough 'home' time. 
But hopefully the next 5 weeks will go by quickly. 

I don't have a whole lot to do this hitch, just school. We did so much cleaning and decluttering while Clay was home, that there really isn't anything but maintaining. I guess I'll get a lot of reading done. I started 3 different books (one in the bedroom, one in the living room, and one in my purse) but then I bought a novel on Amazon and decided to buy it. It's called 'The Aviator's wife'. It was ok. I don't read novels very often, mostly what I read are books from a bookstore at a church. Anyway, I stopped reading the other three books and read the novel straight through. 

Once again I filled a blog post with nothing but boring chatter :)

Aug 3, 2015

Day 8, part 2.

My second personal goal.. 

To be patient with others..

I have compassion, sometimes..  I feel compassion for underprivileged children (speaking of children, I have sponsored a child through Compassion for about 2 years now. Her name is Erlita and she lives in Peru.  It's not expensive at all, I have it taken out of our checking account every month and we honestly don't miss it.  It's a good cause and they really do a lot for the kids.  Check out the website and sponsor a kid!)
I feel compassion for people who are abused, treated unfairly, etc..

But I am impatient with lots of people..  There are behaviors in others that I find incredibly off-putting so I tend to react negatively toward anyone who displays them..
Instead of taking a moment to consider the fact that there is a reason why they behave the way they do; I become annoyed and then impatient, and then sort of mean..
Ok, maybe not mean anymore, but I am short with them and by my attitude it's obvious that I don't care to listen to them or be around them..

I'd like to change that..  Being rude to someone simply because they behave in way that annoys me is, well, bad behavior right?
I mean, I could always ask the person displaying the particular annoying behavior why they behave that way..  I could try to understand them rather than becoming abrasive..  Or I could simply ignore it; decide that there is a reason that I am not aware of and instead of passing judgement, just letting it go..
Right?

Aug 1, 2015

Finished!

Well kinda..  There is still some outside work that needs to be done, but the house is finished..

We got a new bed for our room. I'm such a bed hog that when Clay is home he sleeps on the edge of the bed while I toss and turn all night and sprawl all over the bed.  So we got a kingsize. 
And with all of that extra room where did Clay sleep last night?  On the edge of the bed. 
Turns out, he prefers to sleep there. He says he's quite comfortable. Weirdo. 
Oh well, even more room for me I guess!

After we redid our room we tackled what we call 'the yellow room". 
It was a mess. We just kept the door shut and pretended it wasn't there. 
No way could Clay's parents stay in that room like that..
It took a while but we did it!
Now I love the room. It's so bright and cheerful, and Elaine's artwork looks great  on the yellow background.

Now we're tired. Fortunately we have a loveseat recliner to relax in ;)