Yesterday our church began a corporate fast.. It's only a three day fast, but Clay and I are going to continue it and do a full 40 days.. We are doing a juice fast for the three day fast with our church and then fruits and vegetables for the other 37.. We are also fasting television (except sermons, secret church, etc) Facebook, pinterest, games on cell phones, all that stuff (except the blog, obviously)..
Yesterday went pretty well, I didn't get hungry until evening, then it sucked.. I got through it though..
I'm OK this morning (I'm not fasting coffee because I don't want to kill anyone) so we will see how it goes.. I hear day 3 is the hardest, so tomorrow might be bad..
I'm hoping these 40 days will help to jump start a healthier lifestyle.. I'm heavier now than I have ever been.. Like ever..
I need to change the way I look at food.. I'm not an emotional eater, I don't eat more when I'm upset, sad, angry, whatever.. I don't look for love from food, I don't need it to fill an emptiness or anything like that.. I have a pretty happy life really..
I eat because I like to eat.. I eat because I substitute food for things that I don't do any more (heroin, cigarettes, booze)..
I eat because I like food..
But I also eat because I can..
Because it's there..
Because I want it..
Maybe I'm a food addict? I dunno..
Whatever, it needs to stop..
I need to get to a place where I see food as something to fuel my body and give me energy. Not something I think about all the time and look forward to.. Eating has become a habit.. I mean to say that overeating has become a habit. A lifestyle. This needs to change..
I used to go to the gym every day, and really came to enjoy it, but then last year, I ended up in the hospital (twice) for 2 weeks and just stopped going to the gym.. I also quit smoking the day I went into the hospital the first time. When you quit smoking, you gain weight so that was a given.. But to quit smoking and exercising? Yeah, stupid..
So.. It's goodbye bread, sugar, and fried; hello gym..
Clay's work VISA was approved! He can go back to work :). I was happy for about a second.. I mean I am happy that he can go back to work, but I'm bummed that he will be leaving.. I got used to him being home.. He has been home for 8 months (working construction with a friend during the day) and we have grown accustomed to him being here.. So the next few hitches are going to be difficult until we find our groove again..
We had to take Sky to urgent care last Monday.. She called me to tell me that her throat hurt and she felt warm.. I know that sounds kind of lame, but if you knew my kid you would understand.. She's the toughest kid I know and doesn't complain about pain unless it's serious. Like a few years ago when she woke me up to say "mom, my stomach hurts". 2 hours later her appendix exploded. "Mom my hand hurts"; turns out she had a hairline fracture in one of the bones in her hand. "Mom my finger hurts"; meant that she had slammed it in her car door and ripped it all the way to the bone..
She does say 'this hurts' or 'that hurts' in passing and it's no big deal, but when she actually makes it a point to get my attention? Yeah, we have learned to take her seriously! So I called Clay and we took her to see a doctor. She had a 102.2 fever which explained the "feeling warm" and also had the flu AND strep-throat. Lovely. We got her antibiotics, some Tylenol, chicken soup and Gatorade and put her to bed..
She got up the next day, went to welding and then to work. Typical Sky.. She takes after her father. :)
I can't really think of anything else.. I'll try to blog more often though..